hair, self-love, and health

fantasy-girl-1082212_960_720The journey with my hair began about two years ago? Around October/November of 2015 and it ended September 2, 2017.

What journey, you didn’t ask?

I had a really huge problem with vanity. What I mean about this is, I hated myself. I was often called pretty and cute growing up. It was the worst thing for a child who wanted to be smart and capable because all others could talk about me was how cute I was. Nothing else I did seemed to matter to the adults. So, rather than feel proud of being beautiful, I began to hate it. Then the hate for it, I turned to myself.

When I took my indefinite break from university, the first things I did was 1. re-evaluate what was important to me and 2. understand why I was filled with anger and hate. My hair was one of the things that #2 pointed out. Continue reading

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clichè meetings—chapter four

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This story was previously published under the pen name, aira isane and is now published under vela june

© 2011-2017 by vela june

all rights reserved.

copyright

Stars featured in this fanfiction has no relation to me. The events within the story are fictional. I do not own these people.

Chapter 4 Bump

I sighed heavily as I claimed to know the guy. That settled it for everyone. I would return it. I just didn’t know when I could do it… not until I got to the set.

The hardest part of the mission wasn’t arriving on time or the actual job. The most difficult thing I had to cope with was Choi, Seunghyun himself.

At the moment of my arrival, my eyes quickly fixated itself on the back of Seunghyun. He held a seemingly normal conversation with someone I didn’t know. I didn’t know? Why do I care? I shook my whole body to wake myself and headed towards the entrance. Maybe, fate made a mistake and crossed two extremely different people together.

Why complain? Continue reading

clichè meetings—chapter three

450976This story was previously published under the pen name, aira isane and is now published under vela june

© 2011-2017 by vela june

all rights reserved.

copyright

Stars featured in this fan fiction has no relation to me. The events within the story are fictional. I do not own these people.

Chapter 3—Coincidental Bump and Mixed Luggage

I looked at my watch and decided to call up my mom. After a while of talking to her on the phone and sitting on a vacant seat I’d luckily found, I decided that I would go stop by YG Entertainment first. Let me just get this straight. I’m not going because I’m anticipating for Seunghyun to be there. Please… I don’t like the guy…

I stood up from my seat and scanned the place. Compared to the Philippine Terminals, this was way better. Fans didn’t bombard me like they did in the Philippines, though I did appreciate it. It was a lot more spacious than I had remembered.

So when I bumped into him again for the third time, I just thought, man, fate must like throwing us together. Continue reading

clichè meetings—chapter two

SandaraPark-PenshoppeThis story was previously published under the pen name, aira isane and is now published under vela june

© 2011-2017 by vela june

all rights reserved.

copyright

Stars featured in this fanfiction has no relation to me. The events within the story are fictional. I do not own these people.

Chapter 2 Endless Flight

I patiently waited in line for my turn or as patiently as I could. I glanced around, wishing for Seunghyun to save me again.

“Woah,” I said aloud after catching myself.

Everyone in the terminal seemed to have heard me and stared without restraint. Great. Crazy girl over here, I thought.

I waved an apology and everything returned to normal. Why had I thought of him anyway? I shrugged the thought away.

“Miss.” Continue reading

dark depths

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I write a good number of dark stories tackling mental health and I truly enjoy them. It’s fun and I didn’t think I’d like it. It’s just difficult to get an audience for my certain darkness…

I particularly write dark fanfics based on J.K. Rowling’s series Harry Potter because it’s such a good base to begin with: PTSD. There’s so many different ways to go about it and I love exploring how the mind works.

Meanwhile, I’m having difficulties conveying Georgiana. I’ve got a bunch of editing still underway and this is what I keep thinking about.

Am I building a great character? Am I even building one to begin with? I’m not sure if I conveyed her well enough. AH but yes, that’s what editing is for. I just got done watching a really great anime: Ansatsu Kyoushitsu / Assassination Classroom. That anime and manga created such an in depth array of characters. It’s not the first I’ve seen but the most recent new one. I want something like that— well-written characters especially since my entire novel is dependent on Georgiana being a relatable character. You don’t have to like her, you just have to be able to understand where she is coming from. Why she ticks the way she does.

I’ve got a long way ahead of me…